There's not a big difference between being awake and being asleep. I can feel my body go unresponsive, time disappears. Images, sounds, stories, music - screaming... Why does waking up always feel like screaming? I feel the same weight, or pressure, that you get from the whole experience of screaming. Not excited screaming - the other kind. The involuntary kind. The kind of screaming that comes from your gut - a reaction rather than an activity. Time has passed - the clock says so. Was I just thinking about skateboarding on beams of light? Ugh - why does my head hurt? Can't really move yet. Just get your arm working so you can turn off the alarm - turn on Netflix, or music, or an audio book so you don't go right back to... Fuck, is it 8:00??? Yeah the light turned off. You're late for work man. Do I have time to brush my teeth? Guess I'll skip breakfast. Need coffee. Wait, need to feed the dog and ca... Fuck, how is it 8:30? Might as well brush my teeth and eat breakfast, you're supposed to be at work right now anyway. mmmm... okay...sitting up. Don't fall asleep - don't fall asleep. Shoes...no, pants...damn it - underwear - socks - shirt - pants - shirt - sweater - coat...um...shoes... teeth? no let the dog out. uh - okay feed the animals...teeth, food. Water - need water. Where the fuck are my shoes? Need to warm up the car - 15 minutes ago...
of course the cat threw up on my coat...guess I'm wearing my hoodie to work. sigh...
why does my damn head hurt so much?
oh well - fuck it - drive to work...
Coffee - need coffee...
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